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I’m very good at charity, I know. I just can’t be cheeky enough to ask money for anything.. On Saturday I helped a complete stranger to buy a new notebook then on the same day I reinstalled another machine just out of hobby. I didn’t ask for anything in either of the cases. They say good will is going to cause my end. I hope they are wrong because being good and helping everyone is a real virtue. At least that’s what they taught me when I was a child and I’m glad it’s so.

It’s a long weekend here so I really wanted to condense everything in these three days. I still have Monday whilst with time management of unexpectedly expert level I managed to cope with almost all the objectives. Monday is for myself then – that’s what I have decided 🙂
Now, can I keep my promise I have made? Am I so important for myself? 😉

I starve – because I want to. I am cold – because I want to be. I strain myself – for my own good, I say to myself. I am exhausted – because I need the challenge. I am left without energy and I still keep advancing till I break. That is all good and I have to keep it up if I want to keep dark thoughts at bay.

Diet, sports and self-constraint are beneficial things. And anyway: pain is just a bio-chemical process – ignore it!

My teamleader is a nice and kind girl. Today she was nicer and kinder than ever, though and I was much more relaxed than usual – even with a minimum of five hours’ sleep. Her hair was set loose (instead of being tied back) and dyed to a nice tone between black and darkred. Could have been around #560C0E in hexadecimal RGB colour code.. All my colleagues were really happy and kind today and it was an unbelieveable bliss to complete the assignments given. We spent much less time on having a tea or eating our lunch. Still, we were all enjoying every minute of the workday. I love indian summers.
 
One of my shocking observations is that my spoken English is better than at the time of my last departure for Hungary. How could this be.. Must be something mental.
 
Back in Hungary I have bought a new and smashing, customisable router and I brought it over on the plane to this foreign world. I should have planned this all much better because I forgot about the difference in power socket standards. I’m using the converter which I’ve been using for the mobile’s charger so far but all in all I’m one converter short.
 
Why did I feel relaxed and happy today?.. Well, that remains a mystery, I guess. Maybe the unexpectedly wonderful weather has something to do with it. Perhaps making a few calls could have contributed to the effect as well.

Itt ülök a repülőn, zenét hallgatok, blogot írok és hamarosan animét nézek. Még nem zuhantunk le 🙂

I have set my personal message on messenger to “taking a cold shower to get into zombie mode again..”. I did this because that’s just how I feel. I’ve lived for 12 days moderately (let’s not forget it’s Zetto we are talking about) to the fullest: met lots of friends, relatives, travelled to several places. However, there are some things I regret I haven’t done (for example saying a few words at the right moment). But that’s just how it is, I guess.
 
Good-bye familiar world, I’m back to the foreign, unfamiliar, grey unknown territory. Physically and mentally I’ll be at a different place. Welcome back, zombie days..
 
That’s how you fight against deprivation from everything you know: getting dormant. Although it’s painful at first, it’s working. On the long run, it’s a hell, really. I know.
 
To match the mental pain, some sense of inflicting and getting damage physically could be a great kind of solution. That’s why I decided to start karate again. It’s going to take some time before I manage to “heat up the water” (it was about one year ago that I gave it up due to moving to a foreign country) but as long as at least semi-contact hits and kicks are included, I don’t mind. Full contact would be the best however. Shame on me, Shotokan is not about open aggression and giving out your frustration..
 
I’ll get along. Somehow 🙂